*5* You know you can't see me

I opened the door and entered my home. First stop, the kitchen! as usual hehe, everyday I come home from school i'm so hungry, thats 'cause I don't like eating in school. I put my bag on the floor near the staircase which landed with a heavy thud on the floor. Then I went to the kitchen where Marlyn and Helen were busy preparing lunch.

"Hellooo" I said as I entered

"Ha? hungry??" said Marlyn to me

"Ofcourse! very very hungry.. What's for lunch ?"

"Today is Tuesday, chinese noodles and chicken wings!" She replied.

"Mmm.. yala I want"

"Go change and the it will be ready" She told me.

I turned my back and left, picked up my heavy back pack and went up the stairs to go to my room.
I found my mother sitting on the edge of the sofa where she always sat, she was on the phone with someone, and my dad was on his lay-z-boy eating his salad and watching tv.

"Ilsalam 3alaikum" I said, as I put my back pack on the floor, wich again landed with a heavy thud on the floor, and went to kiss my parents.

I went to kiss my dad's cheeks and forehead. and then went to kiss my mothers cheek, seeing as she was on the phone.

Sometimes I wish I could save the "hello's" after i come back from school for later. I mean I come home from a long day in school, the first thing I would want to do is throw myself on the bed. But, some there are some things that aren't meant to be changed and have to be done, oh well!

"Wa3alaaikum il salaam shouugaa" Said my dad, trying to speak clearly because his mouth was full of lettuce from his salad.

"Shloun kan youmich?"

"zain il 7emdila" I replied as I made my way to my bed room.

I dragged my bag with my foot to get it into my room and then closed the door.
I threw myself on my bed with my legs still on the floor "aaaah" I thought. "i've wanted to do that ever since I got up this morning"

I stretched my arms above my head to reach for my phone which I leave on charge when I leave for school in te morning, I do bring my phone with me to school sometimes, but not always.

5 New Text Messages.

Khaled: Hii shlonich?:D how was your day ?
- da3aya
- da3aya
- da3aya
- da3aya

Hal da3ayat when will they give up? yuba I don't give a shit kel youm ared alga 5, 6 some times 10 new texts,astanes and then it turns out only one of them matters the rest are all crap :/
I replied to Khaled's text:

Me: Heyy, I'm fine you? My day was okay, vaccination day today ;p

Then I got up to get dressed. I took my jumper first,wich 'caused some static electricity to my blouse and hair. And then I took my blouse off and put it on my bed, I saw my fresh patterns on my skin as I uncovered my arms. *sigh :s* I thought. Then I rolled my eyes and pretended like I diddn't see anything and continued getting dressed.
I picked out my black leggings with one of my oversizd t-shirts and then layed back down on my bed untill lunch was ready.

1 New Text Message

Khaled: Tamam damech b5air:p douumz.. Loool akeid entay ashja3 wa7da mn il banat, o il 9bayan b3ad yemkin o rui8tay jidamhum kelihum 9a7 :p mako walla ana sa7abt 3al 7e9a9, ne9 elyoum bil masyad nel3ab koat o n9 bil 7amam :p

Me: Hehe eeeh 6ab3an 3ayal shloun :p Hahaa hathy 7alatkum kel youm:p wallah 7athkum tegdroon tgazroonha wayid a7na nroo7 feeehaa, bs hem sa3at we take the risk an get lucky:p

Khaled: Lo0o0l.. A7na b3ad enro7 feha bs negdar ni6la3 menha bsr3aa:p 59o9an ana l2ena ana khalood el 3ab8ry: a7m a7m:D lool.. eeehh ento ur school strict wayd mo shay :s

Two winters have passed snce i have met Khaled, so we've basically known each other for 2 years now and never talked on the phone or face to face. we've seen each other mn b3eed lai b3eed. and we only text and talk on msn. Thats it. But he's the best :) !

"Yala, shoooug" called my mom

"Na---" kint bagol Na3am bs ma madany akamiil

"Shouuug!!" she called again

"Na3aaam" I called back

"Ha yalaa ghadaa" She said

"enzaain" I said

Sometimes I wish she would try to stop screaming for once. Just once.

I put my feet on the floor and got up, i took a light long sleeved hoodie and put it on, put my slippers on and skipped down the stairs.

I sat down in my usual place, next to my mother, and infront of where Noor usually sits, but she takes Abdullah's place, infront of my mother, because Abdallah has probably just fallen asleep at this time of the day, hence he won't join us at the table, or any other family activity or event.

"Ha Shoug a7e6lich shourba?"

"La2."

Ya3ni I never drink soup, you still don't know that?
You know why anafis 3ala ashyaa base6a? Because she treats me like a kid. I'm 15!! And she also thinks i'm a kid too. It pisses the fuckk off me. (*Sorry about the language:s). Also, she treats me different than the way she treats my brothers and sister. Yea okay because they are older than me, the closest one to me by age is Talal who is 6 years older than me. All my brothers and sister have a one year difference between there ages starting with Abdallah the eldest. But even though! My friends parents treat them like grown adults, wich is clearly not the same way I am treated.

"Shloun il madresa elyoum Shoug?" She asked

"3ady nafs kelyoum" I said while eating my chicken wings

"Mako shay yideed?" She added to her question

"emm.. kan 3indena vaccination elyoum" I added

"Hellooo"
"Sorry t2a5aart 3alaikuum" Said Noor as she came into the dining room and kissed my parents foreheads.

"Nooor.. kela met2a5raa?!! Ya3ni al7een ma legaitay ta5theen shower ela wakt il ghada? wakt il ghada il wa7eed ely nityama3 feeh kelina il family!"

"Sorry baba hehe" She said smiling as she sat down infront of mom

"Ashoof when Noor is late for lunch you make a deal, Bs Abdallah never joins us for lunch or anything at all, infact I barely see him chena lal7een bil states, why don't you talk to him? If it was me or Noor chan yawailna. How come? tfareg bain your sons and daughters?" I thought
I was quiet like I usually was eating my meal.

My mom and Noor started talking to my mom straight away about how there day was laughing and talking throughout the meal. It's funny how with Noor she can easily start a conversation, but with me you don't. She feels more comfortable talking to Noor than me. The only conversations we have, just me and her, is about my grades and studies, every single day! oh and when I ask permission before going out.
I'm not jealous, I just wished she would talk to me like she talked to Noor and Talal and Abdallah.

"Shoug shlaawniiich :p?" Asked Noor when the table's gon quiet.

I lifted my head to the sound of my name

"I'm fine hehe, entay shlounich?" I said smiling wryly.

"tamaam tamaam"
"How's skeewwl" She asked me

"School's good good..you shloun jam3a?"

"jain jain hehe" she said

And then started a new conversation with my mom.

"il7emdilaah" Said dad as he finished his laban and put his glass down on the table.

"n3ma" He added as he pushed back his chair and carrying his plate, making his way to the kitchen.

He's very helpful for taking his own plate to the kitchen o y5afif 3ala il 5edam. Thats how dad was:). Peaceful and quiet,well, too quiet, as well.

I thought I would do the same since I have finished my meal too.
I gathered my plate, utensils and glass and got up.

"il7emdila" I said, pushing my chair back, making my way to the kitchen where I found my dad washing up in the guest sinks.

I put my plate in the kitchen and went upstairs back to my room.

"ta3alaay qaslaay !" My dad called out as I was skipping up the stairs

"aqasil foug ana ib dary a7san" I called back when I was half way up the stairs.

I reached my room and closed the door. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then went back to my bed,laying down in the same position I was before I went down to lunch.

I stretched my arms to reach for my iPod wich I let on my bed side table, put on my head phones and scrolled down the list of songs. I chose a song and then set it on shuffle.I closed my eyes when I remebered that I was texting Khaled and I diddn't reply to his last text.

Me: Sorry re7t at'3ada w tawny 5ala9t. Hehe ya inta;p.. yea 7adha ma teswa 3alaina we risk shwaya to have some fun :s... Anyway khalood ana ta3bana 7adii banaam, akalmek la gemt k, nighty;p

I hit send button and then closed my eyes and continued listening to my iPod hoping to get a nice nap before I have to go and do some school work.
I lay there for almost 45 min. and no luck I couldn't sleep. I looked at the clock, it was 4:45. I'm gonna get up soon, 5:30 max. I told my self. I lay there anyway even though I couldn't sleep, resting my head with my eyes closed, breathing in the same sequence.

Incoming Call: Summer-o ;*
5:00 pm

"Aloo.." I said with a heavy voice, the one you get when you just wake up in the morning;p? Except I diddn't just wake up, I diddn't sleep. "woah, I must be very tierd to have such a voice after just resting" I thought.

"Holaaa bellaaa"

"Heyy"

"Nayma?

"la, kind of"

"Ok sim3ay, So I was talking to Flan and....."

She talks very fast:s and when I'm tierd honesty I don't feel like following up with what she has to say, i'll ask her about it later or something.

I put my phone on the pillow next to me while I rubbed my eyes and wiped my face. And all I hear coming from my phone is Summer: "bla bla bla bla bla... okay chan I said... a3dain tadren shno gal? Hahaha!! bla bla bla bla bla.."

I took the phone and held it next to my ear again.

"Hahahahahaha!!! fahamtaay? Hahahaha"

"haahay ee ahem shaaay " I replied, although I diddn't fully hear everything she said, I went with the flow, it was always like that 3ady t3awadna:p

"hehe umbay the7akt the7iik"
"Anyway yaya 3ind il tutor elyoum 9a7?"

"Ha.. umm laa I can't."

"Whyyyy"

"emm.. madrii.. umy thak elyoum galatle ma aro7 3ind tutors anymore l2ena she says ena 3ogb kel il floos ely ga6oha 3alay tuitions o ma yebt grades.. So ma t5aleeny aro7 7ag tutors anymore"

"Wee.. Bs it's tuition ya3nii mo 6al3een nstanes, bil 3aks it helps you get better grades! tell her walla tara tutors wayid isa3don"

"Adry, 7ag physics ma fehamt all it's crap ela lema re7t 3ind Ms.Flana, alla y3afeha.. Bs hem ma ybt feh good madri laish m3ana I understand it you know.."

"Yea.. Ask your mom.. Plus elyoum yimkin hottie Flan joins us bil group hehehe"
"faa yala try ma3a umich w tell me k?"

"Summer walla mara7 tertha o mali 5elg I talk to her 'cause bityeeb mawthoo3 wara mawthoo3 o teg3ad tsame3nii kalam I really don't need to hear right now, trust me!"

"ula, k:s.. Enzain tara try talking to her bs..mo 3an tuition 5alee eb 9oub, bs 3an the way you can't talk to her without her having to put you down"

"enzain"

"Ok?.. Menoo?.. la2... ma3arfaa.. is2al baba.. Fahad wa5er 3an babii"

I can hear her brother talking to her on the other side of the door outside her bedroom.

"Hehe.."

"Aloo.."

"Hm:p "

"Yea soo.. ana baroo7 abadiil o bamur Maryoom.. See you"

"Bye.."

I remember those tuition days last term. We used to be late for every lesson because we were gathered at starbucks or just hanging out in the car listening to music. Especially in Ramadhan when our tuition timings were late, and because in Ramadhan we could stay aout a bit later, kenna ngazerha neg3ad lai isa3a 1 in a restaurant just us girls,hanging out,eating, talking, laughing. And our excuse for our parents? The usual: "Kan fee group jedamna 6awelo 3ala ma y5al9oon so bedaina met2a5r" Hehe ;)

I diddn't want to get up. I enjoyed doing nothing, trying to think of nothing and just staring at the ceiling.

I heard my mother calling me, bit I diddn't anwer back because I was sleeping, well sort of.
She called me again, louder and louder.

I removed the covers off me and got out of bed and walked to the door thinking "huuff". Then I remembered, my hoodie. Can't leave the room without it. and opened it. I shut half of my eyes due to the bright light coming from the living room.

"Na3aam"

"Ha Shoug, Kintay ga3d tadrseen"

"No, Kint ga3d arayi7 shway.."

"Excuse me Madam, your clothes are ready" interrupted Marlyn as she hung my nothers clothes on her bedroom door.

"Inzain... taben taklen tshreben shay gabil la tbalshen?"

"umm..la walla, lal7een shab3ana mn il ghada.."

"mmhm. inzain yala shna6ra isa3a 6!"

"Yala ana mashy" interrupted again, by Dad this time.

"Waiin enshala?" said Mom

"Enshalaa mo kel sa3aa a7ad yga6ii3 o ye7tiriim wjodi o the fact ina ana ga3d akalim umy o yefhimoon ina I wanna get this over and done with asap and leave :s" I thought

"Elyoum il thalatha, dewaniyat Flan.." answered Dad

"Eeeh.. yala amant allah" replied Mom

"Faman illah" Said Dad, as he turnd around to head for the stairs.

"Ee Shoug.." She resumed

"Eeehh, fa kent tawny bagom gabel ma tnadeny" I said before she asks me.

"*tut* ma y9ir chithy nayma lai isa3a 6 al7een, b3ad shway ela 7a6een il 3asha o bitnameen.. Mita tadrseen ya3ni?!"

"kint..."

"ro7ay ro7ay bs alla m3ach"

I turned around to go back to my room, and then

"Sim3ay, ana ba6la3 b3ad shway.. 5al9ay kel wajebatich te3ashay o namay embachir sam3a?"

"Kay mom, what am I? 5? :/"

"ok"

I went to my room and opened the lights and curtains and opened my book bag to see what assignments i've got for tonight.

Maths: Ex. ?? Pg. ??
Bio: Read pages ? - ?. Test next week
Geo: Finish class work

I love it when the house is empty. It's so quiet and peacfull. O agdar a5eth ra7ti bara '3erfity 7ata :).. And ofcourse, it's a nice atmosphere for me to do my homework in.

I left my homework book open and went to the toilet to do wash up, (and do some other business :p :$) before I start working.

I always started with my maths, because it was always due in the next day. It was the subject i found most difficult and it needed patience, focus and understanding.

*Knock knock*

"Who is it?" I said without lifting my head off my notebook, knowing it was the Marlyn asking me wat i would like for dinner. Or Noor maybe coming in to borrow something for an outing.

"it's me, Shoug ba6laay" A very heavy voice answered me back from behind the door.

"huh.. who is it? 9out rayal.. o 9outa ma 3arfa, ya3ni 7ada 7ada '3areeb 3alay.. Thgeeeel 7ada..Mo 9out uboy, o tawa 6ela3 jidami,O akeid mo Abdallah, hatha wain 9outa w 3abdalah wain.. o mako '3airhum reyayeel bil bait..Mo ma3qoola Abdallah..Huh:s?!" I was thinking.

*knock knock*

"um ok?!" I said and got off my desk, threw my hoodie on and walked to the door.